Wednesday, January 5, 2011


I often wonder what goes on behind those big, dark eyes. It's been over a year since I last heard her speak. And, although she is not silent, our conversations have definitely changed. I wish for one moment that I could get inside her head, to know what she is thinking. There are days now where she barely makes a sound and it takes a great deal of effort to coax a response out of her. Days where her smiles are faint and slow to appear.


Although I do have to work harder.... moments like these become all the more magical.
( I may or may not have had to resort to chimpanzee noises to get this I will not demonstrate them for you.)


Lately Tatyanna has taken to getting up at 4:00 am. She thinks it's great fun and breaks into giggles when I tell her to go to sleep. Then, once I have had enough coffee that going back to bed is impossible, she does this:



  1. such a sweet smile...

    i can't imagine...i know it can't be easy. what a beautiful girl she is.

  2. Fantastic, beautiful. My son will fall asleep only after I've had my coffee!
    I wrote this limerick for my other kids when they were little to make them smile, replete with gestures (but not monkey noises):

    Do you have a smile?
    Hidden All the while?
    In a secret place,
    or plainly on your face!
    Never failed. The smile makes it so so worthwhile.

  3. Beautiful photos, beautiful girl!

  4. I love this! I love the middle one of her smiling! Says so much!! She's gorgeous!!

  5. I'm sure once you get one of those smiles, it is worth all the effort. I'm sure you would ove to know where she is with her thoughts. She is so pretty.

  6. Aww, love these. Love how the soft natural light is falling over here. So beautiful.

  7. I have been following your story on Clickin moms for quite a while now. You are an amazing momma, and just...amazing. Love her smile.